He comes close to me… I can feel his essence behind me. I tense up in an anxious state. My toes curl, my heart race. I cannot move, I can only smile and wait for the hum in my heart and my soul to take over completely

I had a dream where I was in a sunny bright island in the middle of a river where both sides had paradise. I knew I was in the center of paradise, and I had invited along so many people to come be in this happiness. My husband was there basking in it to. We celebrated life and love, and it was just truly amazing. My husband and I decided to go to one of the mainland sides to see how everything was doing. Inside the market place, I felt something was off and so did he.

There in a dark place of the marketplace was a woman and man, who seemed hollowed, and dead, vampires. I locked eyes with her, and knew she was there to destroy. I yelled to him, run, as well as everybody else. They began attacking the people, as I continued running telling people to go back to the island to be safe. We got on the boat and returned to the island. I managed to get so many people hidden from these vampires.

The vampire could finally showed up to the island in the river, and I was making sure I was ready to face them down. The woman walked in first and I noticed she was the head of all this anger and chaos. She had blond wavy hair and she was truly lost and empty, she wanted to take my heart and soul. “This is paradise. This is happiness, you cannot take this away from anyone! You will not get what you truly need from here!” That enraged her to go after me, and her male counter part went after my husband, but my husband managed to fight back. We both ran to the boats and crossed over to mainland again with the vampires following.

I ran to the gates of the cemetery and as if the gates knew who I was they opened up. My husband and I ran inside a tomb that had opened to us, then the vampires followed us as well, but since I knew the tombs we were able to get out while the vampires got lost down there. I noticed they had children vampires, I grabbed them and brought them into the light, to help change them back. People who hid on the island came to where we were, and helped close the gate doors of the tomb. The vampire woman came screaming to the gates, “You cannot do this!”

I looked at her while holding one of the children next to me, “You are in my home. You are in my gates. I tell who comes and goes, and it’s time for you to rest in peace.” For the first time I had compassion for the male vampire since he began to change into a human, but he was still a lost vampire. “The sun shall come up, and the darkness will go back to being just shadows, and you will hide in the shadows until you can find peace.”

Can you really love someone for who they are? When they are out with friends, are you brewing madness because they are not with you? Can you love someone for who they are when you go mad if they compliment someone?

Can you love someone without conforming them into what you want? Can you love someone who isn’t what you actually desired in the perfect person?

Can you be happy and loving with someone with all their faults? All the little itty bitty things they do that can drive you up the wall? Can you love someone still, after they have hurt you? Can you love someone to let your ego go, and be able to cater to what they want?

Can you love someone when they are broke and cannot support you?

Maybe another question to ask is…

Is it love??

Is it love to rage over someone?

Is it love control everything a person does, so they are not themselves?

Is it love to make them do things just for your pleasure only, but forget about them?

Is it love when you say “You own them”?

Is it love when you can not forgive them?

I had a dream that I found myself finding out what is true love. I look upon my grandmother who was married to the same man until he died, and I realized most people today, mistake so much as love. We can feel things for people, but to truly let go of ourselves to make sure others are taken care of, is one of the hardest things possible to do. We get so stuck in “My needs, My wants, My desires” we want them to be what we want as if we can customize the person to fit us, but we are forgetting, this is another person with different desires, pursuits, and dreams. To love them would to actually love every part of them, even the ones that not fit what we wanted.

We do not own them, but love them. We do not cast them aside but help them with their dreams, and vice versa. There’s so many divorces and break ups, it seems like now a days if you don’t like one thing about a person you say fuck it, on to the next one, instead of working things out with people and moving on to make things stronger. More so as well because we mistake lust for love.  It’s hard to tell the difference now a days when everything is so rushed. I hope one day we can go back to the days where more people can learn to love and work things out… and to just be able to love.

Our paths, go in so many different directions. People on our paths come and go… some on the other hand come back to us, as if we go from A to B, but then disappear for a while but come back. Sometimes they come back is for a reason and purpose, maybe it’s a lesson we need to learn, or they are suppose to be there for more than what they were to meant to be, or something we need to change in our lives, that attracts them back. It’s as if we go from A, to B to C to D then back to A.

I just felt like posting this, It’s a cool way to find you Chinese Zodiac sign in a little bit more detail

I posted mine since I an Earth Sheep/Lamb/Ram/Goat whatever you call it, it’s still a 4 legged creature that goes “BAHHHH”

http://www.tuvy.com/entertainment/chinese_horoscope.htm

EARTH LAMB Horoscope
Feb 1, 1919 to Feb 19, 1920
Jan 28, 1979 to Feb 15, 1980

Lamb people have good taste and are quite charming and elegant … and rich. You may find them the center of attention at a stylish dinner party, ravishing all with incomparable wit and bon mots. The opposite is also true: they are often quite shy and sometimes prefer complete anonymity, the quiet life at home with a good book, a roaring fire, and the joys of the palate. A creative flame burns in their lives and you may find them before a canvas experimenting with bright bold genius strokes of paint. Sometimes, they tend to be pessimistic and question the meaning of life, wondering "why they dwell among green mountains." They are quite often deeply religious or spiritual and quite passionate about their work and their belief.

Sweet Potato Soup and Cellophane Noodles are among keys to good health.

Earth Lambs are like dancing daffodils, moving with kinetic exuberance and joy. Like all Lambs, these creatures are wonderful to socialize with, you just can’t help loving their friendly ways and enthusiasm for living. They make lemonade out of lemons, velvet out of porcupines, and find serendipity everywhere. All their friends and colleagues get caught up with this passion. As you can imagine, they make the best of traveling companions. Earth Lambs are honorable in all their dealings; they roll up their sleeves and do whatever it is that must be done. They know true contentment because they can think of yesterday without regret and tomorrow without fear. Earth Lambs love good books and spend many happy hours seeking treasures in used bookstores. This serious nature also applies to their college years and careers, which they pursue with utmost dedication, hard work, and diligence. At some point in later life, they are rewarded with unexpected financial fortune. What a cozy twosome the Earth Lamb makes with a love partner. Relationships are filled with exquisite warmth, gentleness, and tenderness, with magical threads of sensuality taking them on beautiful carpet rides.

Famous Lamb People: Sir Laurence Olivier, Josephine Bonaparte, Margot Fonteyn, Mikhail Gorbachev, Toni Morrison, Leonard Nimoy, Pierre Trudeau, Katharine Hepburn, Boris Yeltsin

We must learn to live together as brothers or perish together as fools. — Speech in St. Louis, Missouri, March 22, 1964]

This is a quote from the great MLK jr. It lingered in my mind when I saw a video about the march Vs. Glenn Beck rally. It was suppose to be about how Glenn is war and chaos, and the other people were just peace. You saw a man cursing and “fuck you” all over the place, but it didn’t give a reason why. You saw a man pointing like “bang bang your dead” but it doesn’t show you what he’s reacting to, but I know that most people will just see it as hate and not even know what is the real truth.

I find myself wondering what happened to the old days. Where peaceful people were truly peaceful people. I see some say they are, and in the next minute they are talking how we must go to war against others, race, or religion. They get on television for fame and money, but not to truly spreading peace or positivity. They aggravate people to no end to get some kind of negative emotion so they can put themselves in a better light.

When I ask to list peacemakers, it ends up Mother Theresa, MLK, Princess Di, but what about people who are alive today?

I seen more hate now a days than anything else, and it does scare me. Who will be the next peacemaker, that when you see them, you know it’s peace & happiness they seek and nothing more?

We will have to repent in this generation not merely for the hateful words and actions of the bad people but for the appalling silence of the good people.

– "Letter from Birmingham Jail," April 16, 1963

We who engage in nonviolent direct action are not the creators of tension. We merely bring to the surface the hidden tension that is already alive. — "Letter from Birmingham Jail," April 16, 1963

Even through Chaos there is some form of order, and even in order there is chaos. They go hand in hand, but all turns out good in the end.

I’m almost done with this mask and will be selling it… I have a few other masks that will be selling, starting at $15

I found this to be really cool to Check out. I think the Oxygo Gym and Motorola was the funniest. 

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I walked into a room where a bride sat with the man she was going to marry. She said how happy she was to be with him, and he sat there smiling at her. He was truly in love with her, and I knew he loved her for good and bad. When I looked at her, I could tell she didn’t understand how deep his love was for her, and it upset me to no end. I walked up to her, because I knew I had to say something about this, I could not let it go.

That man there loves you. You might not understand but I hope you do, before you break his heart. Love isn’t how someone makes you feel, you can’t just say fuck it because he hurt you once. Love is when you can say I love you after all that mess, and you can put yourself together to work it out to make you as well as him stronger.

You want to know the true test of love, then this is it… You saying “I do” is saying I am taking on this test. This isn’t some kind of game where you are playing "house”, this is someone’s life who they are saying they want to share with you forever. This is where they are telling EVERYBODY, the universe, god, ifa, etc. that you truly love this person with all their faults.

If you don’t like their faults, then tough, it’s apart of who they are. If you can’t handle it then you shouldn’t even bother getting married or even being with them, because you can’t go outside your own comfort zone to love a person for who they truly are. Like I said before, love isn’t about how they make you feel, it’s about loving a person for who they truly are, good or bad. To make sure they are okay and have comfort, and in return, they give you the comfort you need and you are taken care for.

This is truly a two way street, so if you are keep going this one way, then you’ll end up miserable for the rest of your life, and you will hurt him. So I will tell you truthfully don’t fuck this up.

The bride looked at me shockingly but she understood where I was coming from. This wasn’t her first time marrying and she knew she’s been running through men so much before. I walked away from her, because I didn’t want to know later how she hurt him, if she choose to keep it as a high school game.

It seems like this lingers in my mind most of the week, and the end of last week. Earlier last week, I met a woman who taught me even the world’s chaos could have its boundaries, for her the boundary was her hula hoop. I thought it was truly amazing to think a circle around you is all we need, whether it is imaginary or real. We might be able to hear the chaos but in your mind it can become outside noise that is just faded in the background.

The following day after learning the lesson about the hoops, I found out that a good friend of mind Darque de Sade passed away. I was really sad, but the one thing that came into mind was his ideal on knots and folds. There weren’t knots but just folds and bends, when it came to his artwork of photographing women bound up. What he said was also applied to life, no matter what chaos we had it was never to a point where it was a not, it was just bends and folds that has up all caught up, but everything can be loosed and straighten if we choose to.

With life, I guess looking at the most simplest things; have more meaning when we do stop to really look at them. Or maybe it’s just me…